I try every day to be a good person and to follow the path that lays ahead for me but when i come across an obstacle that i cant climb my first reaction is to grab a bottle ...... im ashamed that as a self proclaimed buddhist i fail myself at every obstacle when buddha himself overcame all he had to deal with ...i need to immerse myself in buddha and all he embodies but feel that maybe i have already lost the right to be a part of his world .. Am i still worthy or do i deserve that Karma that i get ....